Escape desire

I stayed all day at home yesterday. It was partly because I had to write a report to my client, a big automaker. When I put data together to write a report, quite often I come up with a new idea to think further. But regrettably I do not have time to play with that idea and in the meantime I forget all about it. Some people suggest that I should make a memo so that I can remember it. I once made one but after I submitted the report, the idea on the memo seemed stale and of no significance. I wonder if I really wanted to try that idea to begin with. Now I suspect this is a kind of desire to escape. People instinctively keep their mental balance by having an illusion or fantasy to escape from the harsh reality, as if to think that the reality is an illusion and the fantasy is a reality.
I don't know if it is good or bad, but at least we should be aware of it. Why? Because "having an illusion" is another aspect of reality. We are such being.