Prisoner of Love

Hikaru Utada is no doubt by far the most gifted singer/song-writer in Japan in my view. Her latest hit "Prisoner of Love" is my favorite. The melody, the way she sings the song, the lyric, all are just great.
Putting all these aside, the title "prisoner of love" especially inspired me. Have we not felt like a prisoner when we came to love someone? Who on earth want to be a prisoner anyhow?
We are ego-centered. The ego-shell in which we live is the hardest thing to outgrow. We seem to carry it all the time from childhood up to the time we finally pass away.
We are, however, given many chances to break through this shell, and the first and greatest of them is when we reach adolescence. I mean the awakening of sexual love. This is the first time the ego really comes to recognize the "other". An ego, entire and undivided, now begins to feel a sort of split in itself. Love, that has been dormant deep in our heart, lift its head and causes a great commotion in it. The love now stirrs demands at once the assertion of the ego and its annihilation. Love demands our ego to lose itself in the object it loves, and yet at the same time it strongly wants to have the object as its own. This is a contradiction and a great tragedy of our lives.
We feel prisoned by what we love because we can't behave as our ego pleases any more. But who feels prisoned? It is not we, but our ego-self. This elemental feeling may be one of the divine agencies by which we are urged to advance in our upward walk. This was the moment we got a glimpse into the world outside our hard ego-shell; the world of infinity. Then why we feel prisoned at the sight of infinity? It is a fear. Our ego feels the crisis of its own existence melting into the infinity.
But most of us miss the chance of breaking out of the ego-self, breaking through into the infinity. We came back deep inside the shell only with the memory of the flagrance of the infinity and wonder what it was all about. "That feeling of losing oneself. It was stupid of me to lose myself." While saying this, we still chasing the infinity from inside our shell. It is like being inside warm and cozy futon and looking for a chance to meet someone who loves you.
Was it not we that was really stupid when we missed out on a rare chance and failed to get out of our ego-shell. "Feel like a prosoner" might have been a rare chance to shed it. It is not too late though.
If you haven't heard the song click here.
http://hk.youtube.com/watch?v=_CVaGLkcY24&feature=related