Fear
6:30 Dark Saturday morning. My watering the garden might call for rain. Soil turned blackish under trees.
I am going to have an annual medical checkup first thing in this morning. Oh, I must return an overdue book to the library after that. The book by Krishna Murty is titled "On fear". I don't think I understand what he earnestly and sincerely tried to tell us. Yet at least I am sure I got some flavor in it.
What the world looks like when we do not see it through our thought? If fear is here, it is here and we should never try to run away from it, for fear is the part of the world and cannot be separated from it. Any attempt(that is thought) to mitigate it, analyze its cause, or describe it in words, distracts our attention from it, forget it... is to look away from the reality and only to enliven it. Stay here, look into it and only if we really understand that the fear is brought about by our thought, we are free from it.
10:00 Came home from the checkup. With a clean bill of health... so far. I have yet to take stool samples to be examined for colon cancer. I tend to be constipated recently... That's the way fear sneaks in^^.
